Log in

No account? Create an account
charlie, computer cat

July 2018




RSS Atom
Powered by LiveJournal.com

Previous 10

Jul. 8th, 2018

charlie, computer cat

(no subject)

It's too hot to do very much at the moment, which is making school very tough indeed. I am going to be so glad when the holidays start. On the plus side, my tomatoes are just starting to ripen, which is very exciting and there are loads and loads and loads of them so that'll be good. I did write a post about Pride in my head but it is too hot to post it.

Jul. 1st, 2018


(no subject)

Well, the exercise in pulling back a bit from things at school is going OK. I had my appraisal at school and was very up front about how unhappy I was and my intention to move on if I couldn't improve things/things didn't improve. The Head said all the right stuff, so I guess it's a question of what the follow through turns out to be like. The atmosphere at school is pretty awful though - people are massively negative and demotivated. I started to feel sorry for Head by the end of the week - I think she's realising how much she's set people against her. We've had a couple of TAs leave because they didn't like their new assignments or hours for next year and I suspect that she's now worrying about how to replace them. She bought it on herself for the most part but still, it must be a tough situation to be in.

The decision not to work in the evenings or weekends has left me feeling really refreshed though. I think it's partly just because it's new - there's a sense of decisiveness to it - but the fact remains that both last weekend and this I've felt more able to relax, enjoy myself and do stuff around the house and garden. I'm probably even going to manage to get the book club book read and I re-read The Power as well, which I still have a completely visceral reaction to. I've become completely obsessed with Critcal Role, which is a show where a bunch of voice actors basically twitch stream their weekly DnD session - I've started at the beginning and am working my way through, switching between watching the YouTube vids and listening to them as podcasts. It's making me very nostalgic for playing DnD, I have to say.

I was listening to the FT podcast yesterday and one of their commentators was predicting that the way Brexit is being handled, Scotland will probably leave the union in the next 20 years or so. They weren't so sure about NI, not because they won't want to but because they weren't sure if Ireland would want to accept them, which was a point I hadn't thought of. Personally, I'd put about a 90% chance of a United Ireland and about 70% of Scotland leaving the Union in the next 20 years - I thought I'd write it down because I was reading a Tim Harford article about how we routinely over estimate how good we have been about making predictions, so this way, I can come back in 20 years time and check :) American politics continues to be scary and depressing - I feel uncertain if there's anything I can or should do as an outsider to support the forces of non-fascism (US friends, feel free to suggest). I remember studying the interwar years when I was in school and thinking that if only they'd known, they could have done this or that and we could have avoided WWII but now I feel like we do know, we can see it, but we can't seem to stop it anyway, which is super depressing.

I feel like I should end this on a less depressing note, so I should say that I am still really enjoying veg growing. We have lots of super large courgettes (my courgette plant is looking HUGE), and lots of green tomatoes ripening up on the tomato plants, plus the beans are flowering and the sweetcorn is continuing to grow. The kale we put in for the winter has been a bit eaten and the peas we planted didn't do very well, but Mum and I are already plotting how to put more veg growing troughs in for next year :)

Jun. 10th, 2018

charlie, computer cat

(no subject)

Ugh. I hate writing reports! I'm not sure quite why they are such hard work, but I find it a real slog. I'm feeling very demotivated for work in general at the minute, which is not helpful as I also need to write a report for my leadership course. It doesn't have to be too long, but it does have to get done. So of course, I spent most of this evening looking at transport options for our trip to France in the summer. At least I did find something that worked for that, so that's something but I really need to pull my finger out and get productive over the next week or so!

Apr. 22nd, 2018


Things I have been....


Since Liz's visit, I've got very into Queer Eye. I inhaled the new series on Netflix and am now going back and watching the original show on YouTube as it doesn't seem to be legally available anywhere I can see. It's just very charming and definitely scratches my itch for TV which is basically about people being nice, a bit like Sewing Bee and things like that. For me, it feels like the new series is very much about challenging toxic masculinity and saying to these guys that it's ok to care about how they look and to talk about how they feel and so on, which is also really cheering me up right now!


As a result of that, I have started listening to Getting Curious, which is a podcast that Jonathan from new Queer Eye does, which is adorable. Basically, each fortnight, he takes a topic that he's curious about and gets an expert on to talk about it. Recent episodes include "How can we be less rude to bees" and "Why's the bail system such a hot mess?" (I haven't listened to that one yet, but I'm going to guess racism). Much more so than queer eye, I feel like it shows how confident he is because it's full of bits where he'll stop the person talking and say "Hang on, I totally didn't get that, explain what pollination is!" or whatever it is. Recommended.


I'm feeling really disconnected from my reading at the moment - I'm finding it hard to get excited about any new reading and at the same time, feeling like I've re-read all my comfort re-reading too many times. I think maybe I need to go and browse in a real bookshop and find some new things that are a little out left field.

What I did read yesterday was a lot of the FT, which I quite like to read. It's partly my attempt to pretend to myself that I'm not completely in my internet bubble, although while it's not left wing, its still very definitely intellectual and pro-intellectualism so it barely really counts. I spent many years being annoyed about the pay wall and occasionally going to see how much it cost and being put off again and then discovered that Alex has a sub via the university so I use that now. I wish they had some kind of micro payments system where you could pay per article - I wonder why no-one does that in newspapers. It feels like something I'd definitely have done with the FT and probably ended up spending quite a bit, if not quite the level of the subscription cost.

Apr. 1st, 2018

charlie, computer cat

(no subject)

It's the Easter holidays at last! I am celebrating by having an extremely lazy Easter weekend, mostly playing Halcyon 6, which is a game Alex introduced me to and which I have been really enjoying. I'm finding it similarly absorbing to how I find Civ, which is perfect for how I'm feeling right now. I'm currently only on the easiest difficulty level, but I might try the next one up after I complete it, just for the fun of it :)

Mar. 25th, 2018

charlie, computer cat

Nearly there

It's nearly Easter at last! Actually, as it's been an assessment week, I feel like I've caught up a little bit. Oddly, I always find test papers easier to mark than books, which doesn't make sense really as they're bulkier and often take longer. I guess it's that I don't have to write responses or anything so it's mentally less taxing. Anyway, I think reading will be OK and SPAG is fine, but Maths is still looking pretty dire, even though they've made masses of progress since the start of the year. We're going to have to work really intensively on it in the last few weeks before SATS and then hope that all the borderline kids make it, which is a big ask, frankly.

Trug has arrived for the new veg planting, but is only part way through being put together as the drill keeps running out of battery. It is a very old drill, so not that surprising, I guess, but still, annoying. I might need to go and buy some horticultural fleece though as we are apparently forcast more snow over Easter, which is ridiculous! When is it going to get properly warm!

Liz is here for the week, which is really nice - so good to see her again! Managed to just miss crossing over with Niall and Nic but presumably, they'll see eachother at Eastercon so it's nice that we get a bit of time before that :) Also made plans to see Niall and Nic soon, which is nice. Last time we went up, I ended up wondering about staying in Oxford long term. I love this house, but I am a bit bored of Oxford, somehow. Still, we're unlikely to do anything about it while Alex's work is here as well as most of our mates. I guess we'll have to wait until he can get a job at the University of Victoria and make a really radical move!

Mar. 18th, 2018

laden coal creature

(no subject)

Snow again! This is ridiculous! I hope it's not doing anything too horrible to my garden - this doesn't feel normal for this time of year, although Alex and I were discussing that this morning and saying it's sort of on the end of the bell part of the bell curve rather than all the way down the long tail, if you see what I mean so hopefully, it won't have too much impact. I suspect the radishes we planted outside at school on Thursday are toast though, although we did cover them over, so you never know - they might make it. I'm also quite glad that my veg trug didn't arrive this weekend, as otherwise I would be champing at the bit to plant :) We've got lots of seedlings sprouting - there's three trays sitting on the dining room table soaking up any available sunshine and looking quite cheerful - lettuce, rocket, spring onions, land cress and, experimentally, kale sprouts. I've never eaten them but we like winter kale and we like interesting sandwich and salad leaves so this will hopefully qualify on both counts, and the packet says they only take 4 weeks to grow, so hopefully we'll find out soon!

School is an odd combination of comfortable and overwhelming at the minute - I had quite a chill week in the classroom, between taking the kids to take part in a choir concert on Tuesday and all the science workshops organised for science week but on the admin/leadership side of things, I feel like I still don't have a proper grip, and because of all the upheaval this year, I have lots more responsibilities than I was expecting. It's not that I can't cope with them, but I am worried that I will forget one - I nearly did this week, only a chance remark from Ruth saved me! I guess I need to get more vigilant about tracking tasks - more stuff in Habitica, maybe. In the process of typing this, I find myself wondering if I should be setting up a separate work account for Habitica or whether that's just going to confuse things. It's definitely a thought.

Mar. 11th, 2018

cassie by jeremy

(no subject)

Been kind of an up and down week this week. As a result of my telling them that their child was poorly behaved in class, one of the parents made an appointment to see our interim head, which was a bit stressful. I try not to let that stuff affect me too much and I obviously couldn't not have said it, but still, it did rather cast a shadow over the week. Otherwise though, it wasn't too bad - I'm starting to feel like they're beginning to get things in Maths, which is a relief. Not everything, but some things are finally starting to penetrate!

We're planting veg in my class this term as part of our topic and I got so excited about it that I decided to try planting some veg of my own! So now I have a planter on order (thanks, Mum!) and am faced with the decision of what to put in it! So many choices - I definitely want to try growing courgettes, and tomatoes, and maybe carrots. I'm also considering a potato planter bag - I may be getting over excited here :)

Now that the weather has started warming up again, I've started trying to get back into Pokemon Go - I'm not that excited by the game aspects but I did enjoy the collecting and it did get me to exercise a bit last year. I actually went for a walk around the village where my school is - very pretty and picturesque! There are lots of new Pokemon since last time I was playing it, but whether I'll stick to it, who knows!

Mar. 4th, 2018


(no subject)

Despite my constant gloomy "it's only a 50% probability on the weather forecast" nay sayings, we did actually get snow this week, and enough for a snow day off school at that. I think I have now had more snow days at new school than I had at old school in 8 years. I mean the head was very opposed to closing unless absolutely necessary (to the extent where we would stay open even if some of the further flung staff members couldn't make it) but also, it is just really much colder and snowier here this year than it's been for years. I do wonder what effect this will have on the climate change debate - not that it makes any difference to the science, but the very mild winters recently have contributed, I think, to a sense of climate change being present and happening now that's made it easier to persuade reluctant people and I really hope that tide doesn't recede but I fear it might. Anyway, the garden isn't looking like it was too horribly shocked by things - the blueberry bush is still budding like no-ones business. I am slightly worried that my lemon tree, currently living in the porch, won't have been very happy about it, but fingers crossed, I guess. Alex has been striking this week to try to stop the University from destroying his pension. Not the best of weathers to be on the picket line! I think they failed to have burning bins as well, so it was all shivering in the freezing temperatures.

The other notable thing that happened last week was that Harry managed to go missing for 48 hours :( Perils of owning outdoor cats, unfortunately. He's an absolute bugger for going through doors he shouldn't and is constantly getting stuck in the bathroom or my wardrobe so we think he just managed to get shut into someone's shed or something of that nature and he turned up none the worse for wear before it got really sub zero even in daytime, but still, we (including Clare) did a lot of fretting while he was gone. I kept checking places I'd already looked and ridiculous places like the drawers in the kitchen (even if he had managed to get in one, he would definitely have made some noise about it). All's well that ends well!

Suz came over yesterday and we spent a certain amount of time just sitting on the sofa doing work with Joan Osbourne playing. It was just like being students again, but with the addition of a reclining sofa :) It made me feel at the same time that that was the good old days and that these are still the good days, if you see what I mean, which is a pretty optimistic note to sign off for the week on!
Tags: , ,

Jan. 14th, 2018

charlie, computer cat

(no subject)

Feels like I haven't stopped this weekend. It's not actually true - I did almost nothing on Saturday - but it still feels like it. I can't decide if it's that I didn't give myself quite enough work time over Christmas or if it's that my PPA went really off track this week, but I don't know. I need to catch up. It does make me look forward to retiring from Brownies though!

Previous 10